Saturday, July 31, 2010
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
33 Days
Only a little over a month until I leave for Madrid and say goodbye to a loving boyfriend, apprehensive parents, and two coffee named dogs for 6 months. The summer seemed to have slipped through my fingers like a handful of sand. Where did the time go?
Lately I've been feeling more anxious than excited as I think about leaving behind everything I know. Michael has probably felt the brunt of my anxiety with all the mini-freak outs I've put him through. But c'mon, this whole "I'm-perfectly-happy-with-you-but-we-are-going-on-a-break" deal has really got me shaken up. I get that it's the most mature agreement that we could come to, but it still hurts knowing that two people can love each other but be free to see other people.
However today I woke up really looking forward to my time abroad. It's a fresh start, like coming to college for the first time... but better. I'll be immersed in a different culture with like-minded people; people who have put going abroad first on their list of priorities in college. With all the bureaucratic nonsense it takes to get a student visa, get into the program, etc. no one is going to go abroad unless they REALLY want it. So in that respect, I'm looking forward to a new group of friends who all have that in common.
Lately I've been feeling more anxious than excited as I think about leaving behind everything I know. Michael has probably felt the brunt of my anxiety with all the mini-freak outs I've put him through. But c'mon, this whole "I'm-perfectly-happy-with-you-but-we-are-going-on-a-break" deal has really got me shaken up. I get that it's the most mature agreement that we could come to, but it still hurts knowing that two people can love each other but be free to see other people.
However today I woke up really looking forward to my time abroad. It's a fresh start, like coming to college for the first time... but better. I'll be immersed in a different culture with like-minded people; people who have put going abroad first on their list of priorities in college. With all the bureaucratic nonsense it takes to get a student visa, get into the program, etc. no one is going to go abroad unless they REALLY want it. So in that respect, I'm looking forward to a new group of friends who all have that in common.
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